Souvenirs of the Affliction
Souvenirs of the Affliction is the second full microtonal album by GroundFault Corporation. It is sometimes referred to as The Gralbum 2. The songs were primarily written from 2023 to 2025, although Nocturne Paranoia was started in 2020.
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Lyrics
1. The Life Unreachable
(Give me another reason to die)
(Only a creature like me would allow this to happen)
(The cumulative weight of every flaw and mistake)
(Crushes me into something unrecognizable)
Why couldn’t I have been like her?
This life is so unfair to both of us
All of us
Am I selfish?
I’ll be empty evermore
Lacking what’s supposed to be misfortune
I’d trade ours in a blink
(Deziro estas stultaĵo) <Desire is a stupid thing>
(I feel no distinction between what I should and shouldn't want)
(Or what’s real and what’s not)
(I only feel deep longing forever)
(I seek to be hurt in all ways but this)
(Kial mia faristo malbenis min vivi tiel?) <Why did my maker curse me to live like this?>
Incarcerated in the ring of envy
What I am is never right
I will never be great, never fully escape
Must be content to play my part in the one life
No-thing pulls on my heart like the joy I’ll never have
The life unreachable
I can only imagine being happy
Borrow the life of a truer me
Someone I’ll never live to be
(But, ya know, I’ll take what I can get, for the moment)
2. Monolithium
Instrumental
3. Nocturne Paranoia
Instrumental
4. Glimmer Extrication
Instrumental
5. Not This Time
Eternal the fleeting
It’s been so long I’ve naught left to say
Except I’m sorry
To the faceless representations of you
Imperceptible, unknown mercy on my noose
I
Always flounder to
Extricate from the
Ghosts of them bent on holding me back
Is it me, or projections of life
Conjured from the perceptions I could never grasp
Every vow
Is my hope till it dies
Forever not this time
Down my line of failures
Unbroken continuity writhes
My only constant here
Barless prison, open as a Tesla-valve dry
In this resting place, there’s no hope in knowing why
I
Always flounder to
Extricate from the
Ghosts of me thinking not with my head
Is it me, is it you, who am I
In the labyrinth inside without a start or end
Useful change
Always meets this demise
Forever not this time
(I’ve been forced into seeing the discontinuity)
(Something else is broken)
(And who is she?)
Nothing more important than discipline
I’ve known that my whole conscious life
I simply must internalize it [this word leads into the next line]
Doesn’t help that there’s something else in my head
So I will learn to dance with you
Your possession a part of me
Now with nowhere to hide
Spin me round, dip me down
To the nightmare I learn to withstand through years I have to bide
Every blow
Is a step I must climb
I’ll survive if its not this time
6. Sakura Blade Minivan
Take my van to a better place
I longed for new life anyway
I grieve
A future departed from every vision that made it real
7. Resolute Prelude
Instrumental
8. Life and Limb
This pain feels good for it channels away the anguish
But it will never be enough to make it permanent
So I hope if I go further I’ll find permanence elsewhere
How elating to grind and carve myself a bleaker body
9. Residual Soliloquy
So I find myself here again
After the edge
I have nothing left, nowhere to go
I’ve undergone a vital metamorphosis
My mask is shattered
The one that let me think I was the same as myself
It hurts to rearrange like this
Who’s under my skin when I look in the mirror
And is it contradictory to say I hate me
But I love you
You’re all I have left
I love you
I don’t know who I am
But I know you
I’m just what’s left over
You beautiful woman
I love who you’ve become
Divided reduced and scarred
But more you than you’ve ever been
I’m glad we survive to see the day
The war isn’t over, but it might just be one day
Will never be who I want to be
I have no choice but to accept that
But every day you get closer
I strive to see that
You beautiful woman
I love who you’ve become
You make it worth this imprisonment
I can’t wait to be you again
